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completely self indulgent. but... folk that know me, know that i am so not one of those 'it's all about me' kinda women. i'm not apologizing, i'm just saying.
now, i feel like writing about jon...
he got me and his daddy all rolled up and tangled inside of his head and heart
he got his brother anchored to his shoulders
he got his uncle peripheral vision constant light
i usta think he had nothing of mine like his daddy just pissed on the ground and said be something and jon was born from that
but jon aint a boy no more
he a man that has a little less slink in his walk and a little more love in his heart he moves as if to say i am my father's creation but i am my mother's son
he got plenty of me in him
the boy whose... brother's murder and uncle's death cuddle close together like lovers in autumn
the boy whose... abandonment from his father and smothering love from his mother are like hot and cold spinning together in spring
the boy whose... thoughts run deep to his center heating and thickening up his soul like rain in summer
that boy that man
somewhere along the line sometime right in front of my face stood up and reminded me that...
he was born in winter
i see him different now more of me in him than i knew the best part of his father but mostly i see him grown a man aside from circumstances an individual searching for a way to be free