well if you must known
i wrote a letter to a person
in response to a question because at that time
i'm kind of autistic focus on what is at hand.
i place some money and a card which could be used as money
it was not the money but the mess what was in the letter
was it selfish
i think not
and i was not attempting to get closer but intended to
ope a new line of communication i guess i really don't know why i did it but the voice told me to do it like when i slept on cruch property and left a mess and money in a note and slid it under the door i'm homeless but rich in what my father has grace and mercy

but i caused a sceen and handled the situation wrong so i fail a test
i should have let someone read the letter and let him give it back instead of being provoked to a quick wrath i'm not ready yet but i to am growing strong?

weakness meekness is it the same thing as pussy?
well now you can judge me