I sting from abrasions and lacerations
mixed in with grease and diesel fuel
Like blood and water in the United Nations
Sticky, like a melted icey pop
My skin, white but tan
artistically colored with dirt

Now I look like a human zebra

I say these things so you can grasp my state of mind
because I wanna tell you some truth of the hated kind

I can't love you,
won't even try to
You will never get from me ecstacy
in its various intracicies
and interfaces
See, I went through all my internal databases
and deleted all of those emotions faces
I'm stuck in a variety of places
representing a compromise between content and miserable
The downs aren't so damn bad without the ups

I have been called a coward,
slinking in the shadows, hiding from myself
Lurking outside the window to my soul
tapping on the glass like a stray branch in a night's wind
but it isn't fear that dictates my actions
You just don't excite and comfort,

You
Don't
Challenge
Me

I clearly have command
and in love
I do not want the upper hand
I was hoping for more, but...

I can't love you,
won't even try to
Does it make me sick? dunno...
but I know that -I- do.

Made me wince ... as if in pain ... while reading ^this^ joint -- *ouchie*


*Emotionally/Painfully/Thoughtfully Nice Flow* -- :9


>My skin, white but tan
>artistically colored with dirt

So you got that "Farmers Tan" going on, huh boo? -- *chuckles*

"white" as in race
"tan" as in, i get sun!

Just describing how amazingly dirty I was from work when I wrote that... damn diesel mechanic gig.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

"tan" as in, i get sun!

Yep -- that's what a "Farmers Tan" is -- an evenly bronzed tan from being in the sun ... (Not for those who turn RED like lobsters) -- and not from workin' on the farm either! -- :P

I gotcha!

a farmers tan cuts off at the sleeves of your t-shirt, yo. OR possibly at the neck of your beater. This is not my situation.

You're right -- but some WHITE folks here in Texas use the terminology "Farmers Tan" for just a crisp, brown, all~over tan -- as opposed to those folks who don't "tan" well at all -- and just turn RED all over ... and peel badly! -- :P

But I checked an confirmed ... and like I said: YOU'RE RIGHT! --- *OOoooKAyyyyyy*

see, I learn something new everytime I talk to you.

Like my rhyme? ;)

Its all in fun, lady.