must admit
i wished to find my freedom in u
i hoped that some how a union would
some how
some way
reverse my restraint

i thought that commitment was my only means
of obtaining enjoyment
or embodying peace
now i know better

u see
those rainy nights
n ur bed we just a way for me to be
affected
and i no longer look for u
in my mind nor on my sheets

i've finally sorted the load
and have found the growth

blessed freedom