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Posted by Free2Fly, Thu May-15-08 08:45 AM
release is so good for the soul. That is one area I've had a hard time coming to grips with and letting go. My ego has not allowed me to release and in return let anything in, realizing that this is what keeps us stagnant.

>no more choking no more numb feelings
>no more hiding and fantasizing
>believing one day i will find satisfaction
>i wonder if anyone else feels like this
>finding pleasure in something
>that just don't sit right inside me

yes i have found pleasure in things that didn't feel right at all within, but continued to stay/do it for the temporary satisfaction but all the while in the inside dying. But as time goes on you do better, you grow...it will get better


>i mean it feels good but when i think about it
>i mean really think about it, embarresment, guilt and shame

felt

This was all over the place, but I was still able to relate. Peace & Blessing