yeah i kno
been on the boards too much lately
but its like i go thru phases
helps me to relinguish stress
and na im not imposin it on u
more like its my vest to protect and help me get past the bullshit
see- i been rhymin since i was a kid
poetically dreamin
anticipation of a saviour
so give me a reason to SHUT THE FUCK UP
yeah im annoyin myself
need someone just to validate me and be like "im feelin that" i guess
and yes, i have a social life but its played like fuckin atari
had a taste of the good like calamari
but i just want to be where the stars be
n nah not space-and na not famous
i just wanna make "tracks" and work and blow bubbles with my kids n watch them grown n shit
chillin in the cut-listenin to jill scott intros
the roots, talib, common
nas, r&b
soul sistas and brothas-sexy like lyfe jennings
maybe see- a fly caramel cat with a muscular body that writes poems melodically
fuckin attend a wedding and walk down aisles
have children bring home smiles and drawings
pets runnin in the yard and dogs cats birds fuckin ostrages
put a grill out in the back an bbq baby back ribs
and make potato salad from scratch (i got that)
ride in my car and sing hymns to GOD
thank him for my blessings
a humble husband that takes care of his responsibilities
and beautiful children-savin for their college degrees
i just want a family
to hug me n shit
to take trips
i dont care about rich just comfortable enough
we struggle together and overcome n stuff






shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


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U are on an emotional roller coaster right now sis -- And I'm 'bout to strap you on the damn Merry Go Round and let you spin for a min' -- :P

Listen -- I validate your flow cuz we ALL want this:

>fuckin attend a wedding and walk down aisles
>have children bring home smiles and drawings
>pets runnin in the yard and dogs cats birds fuckin ostrages
>put a grill out in the back an bbq baby back ribs
>>and make potato salad from scratch (i got that)
>ride in my car and sing hymns to GOD
>thank him for my blessings
>a humble husband that takes care of his responsibilities
>and beautiful children-savin for their college degrees
>i just want a family
>to hug me n shit
>to take trips
>i dont care about rich just comfortable enough
>we struggle together and overcome n stuff

~Plus~

Writing is therapeutic, so if writing your feelings out is the therapy "needed", then by all means -- GO 4 IT!


The flow is felt, but the subject title sucks -- Cut that shyt out! -- :9

therapy yes but don't get yourself censored be aware be responsible be you...personally i am seein alot of growth rapidly slow down on us a little you r shit be mass produced and my digestive track is on slow metabolism right now

"keep pennin till the earth birth's your rightful seed then nurture it wit more ink..."
ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder

cuz i know i been writing alot...

but u dunno what im goin thru




shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

cuz i know i been writing alot...

but u dunno what im goin thru




shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

wasnt quite what i was thinkin..........but it wasnt far off either...lol...peace

shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

therapeutically speaking-it's not healthy to bottle ur bleeding
I can't stuff and stuff
more pain over aggrevation
I can't fit anymore into this tiny space and
it's been along time coming
my pain is teetering and seething
provoking me to run my mouth
when I know it's the devil edging me
trying so very hard to get the best of me
but I experienced life
cuz I fought it
but I gave back-cuz I like to help
I like to give advice
I like to be secure
I like to preach the bible
and if your the same way, that's fine
I'm happy for you
I've had a hard life
I feel I deserved it too
I'm so very tired
of struggling
I'm so very tired of people lying
and what do u care what I think?
I just wanted something to give to my kids
I love them so deeply it paralyzes me
I didn't care about having a man
I cared sooo much about them
and I don't portray image cuz I'm locked into believing
that we're all human therefore hypocritical
But I'm tired of excuses to make me suffer more
I lived in a shelter for 2 years
and been beat before
materials can't compensate
anymore
post traumatic stress disorder







shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

your honesty is a relief finding the courage to write regardless of replies is the stuff that writer's find beyond a stream of conscious venting and inspiration while this is therapeutic yes it also shows a great promise for a very talented writer.
(be mindful) allow (the best part) of yourself to find the (photosynthesis) taking place inside of you don't let (KnowOne) kill your dreams again and (Whateva) you do always remember being (as i em) is Ezzsential in getting past any (C.R.I.S.I.S) cause we both know it's often the (invisible ink) that makes a difference now isn't this all a (Phenominality) :)

"keep pennin till the earth birth's your rightful seed then nurture it wit more ink..."
ASIEM
"Kuun fiyah Kuun" Quran
(Be and it is)
" A writer takes his pen to write the words again that all in love is fair" Stevie Wonder

this shit is crazy
my step dad being with my mom cuz she has money
then sending me to be on permanent recruit
everytime with a man replacing their girlfriends with some rich chick
then disquising it
setting me up and making it look like I deserve it
making me look like I'm in competition
but I really loved those men I was with
So I was hurtin
that's it




shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

to send and send
replacing replacing
and color coding excuses
people didn't wanna go with it but were forced into it
by people making up lies and tryin to get paid
are u crazy? this is not GOD
it's being disquised under business transactions
networking and such
everyone being taken care of

nah mean?

that aint GOD
more like cats tryin to get paid without the 9 to 5





shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html

whose dropping lucky charms
delusional filling up chair arms
saying every thing is taken care of
yeah wheres the love wheres the crumbs
belly ach brings pain fuck i don't like this game
never was in it for the fame but it came
dangerous coming for the scandolus
who can stop us the dragon's front tooth
music blasting from the dj booth
sweety trying to keep it a secret
i beat it mood flip when niggz crip walk over my cream
this ain't no dream plans to leave'n
infa red beams on skullies hanging off her jelly
nelly flatline dracula drinking your blood like wine
after smashing great mines puff daddy
did he change common cents never loose
easily i speak shiting out my enemy

they just make me laugh while weavin in a point

but i aint delusional punk~!



shouldn't say it all or it will be taken
stolen by the Devil
God's my only vacation


...www.soundclick.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoulmusiq
www.myspace.com/ezzsentialsoul
www.webspawner.com/users/delicateaurasoul4/index.html