60115, #4 Posted by Improv, Wed Sep-06-06 08:34 AM
U –n- I By Improv!?
Sometimes I wonder Why I haven’t given up On us yet As much mental angst we’re been through We should have gone insane Or broken down But we’re standing strong While wading through the bullshit Now I see why your favorite article of clothing Is Capri You and I are the same image In that cracked mirror we tried to hide From the world You and I are the same person No longer making love to Marvin Gaye or Prince But to R. Kelly who whispered in your multi-pierced ear That you remind him of something He just don’t know what And you and I accept this as the true definition of Love Love? Have we even touched its skin? Kissed its tears Held it in our arms Even once? I doubt that I ever did But I’m willing to with you…
We sat at a table of indecision and ate misunderstanding Pointing fingers at each other To make the food go down quicker Our tablemates dished out second and thirds Even after we said we are full Lies and rumors Jealousy and envy When did we decide that our diet will consist of Such unhealthy train of thoughts? Was it after we shed that last tear Which melted our innocence? Was it during the serving of hot passion That clouded our vision? Or was it that every time we looked in the cracked mirror Instead of seeing our beauty We Just Saw the flaws Within each jagged line…
I can never hate you Hating you is like hating myself When I hold you I can understand Why my rib was taken to create you When I hear your voice I can understand Why the morning is never complete without a bird singing Pardon my infatuation But I’m in awe of The way you can Fit within the puzzle called us Now if only we could get away from this table Long enough to start living healthy…
But that mirror is blocking our way And you’ve discovered your flaws again I tried to tell you to look pass them You couldn’t You can’t You won’t So to hide your shame You point out mine And compare them To the niggas who Caused the mirror to crack in the first place I’m confused by the abuse I’m taking For some other nigga Who pulled the trigger to their sex shooter When all I wanted to do Was to know you But the closer I get to you The more you draw away You’re waiting to exhale While I’m trying to inhale your essence But you mask your natural scent With the conception of the perfect man Or rather The lack of I may not be the best man But I’m striving to be Not only for you But for my unborn son so that he can see that Yes men are able to say I’m sorry when they’re wrong, It’s ok to rescue a damsel in distress, And it’s not a sin to love just one woman I’m trying to get right so we won’t get left But what’s the use when I’m being beaten to death With all your bad relationships Baby, Look at me Look at me long and hard I’m not that nigga that left you for Suzy In you second trimester, Fucked with three of your best friends, And crashed your car after a wild night of partying While you were mourning a love passing away I’m not that nigga Just like you’re not that female who Used me as a stepping stone To build up her self-esteem Broke my heart and called five minutes later just to kick it Or the one I made cry because I Just Wasn’t Ready We are none of those people And I’m tired of jumping through hoops Just to prove you wrong…
I need for us to start all over from the letter Alpha To our Omega Let’s have a clean slate to write Our journals on each other’s heart Declarations on our backs And emancipate all the demons We allowed to enslave us Let’s build back up our lives On concrete instead of shifting sands Understand that I love you because You complete me And I need you to breathe Within this polluted world All I ask and pray for Is that you feel the same way too So that we could put away the mirror And only reflect Ourselves In each other…
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