you slid beneath my skin
like moss underneath river stones
it felt slick and
unnerving
i
couldnt grip
couldnt hold
couldnt hang on
you
made me feel
free, not free
uncontrolled
you didnt push me
i
slipped away
couldnt grasp the
concept of you
the unknown
gripped around my heart
a clench of terror
i saw the worst in me
in your eyes
i saw the best part
there too
i couldnt be the
all in we
couldnt be the all
that you are, i
had to become something
new
something with grip
a strong hold of self
assured an antagonist of fear
i had to flow
float away
without even the hope
that you'd understand