Ive been through layoffs at at least three different companies and each one has been particularly jarring and traumatic. Feeling that I will be ok after this one isnt helping me deal with being here.

And it’s really the anticipation more than anything else. Whether I keep my job or not, it’s that every email or teams message or meeting moved around is just a point of panic.

A woman I set up a meeting with Friday. Went to email her today for the meeting. Gone