He had three targets picked out. Multiple weapons with multiple ammo types for a prolonged attack. Wrote about suicidal thoughts leading up to the day because of his guilt over lying to his family about what he was up to, and how he expected to die an extremely violent death and WANTED it to be violent to make a point about the movement (I haven't seen what he thought that point was, maybe he never figured that out).


Then he gets down to it and like most cowards who are really just trying to make a name for themselves and live in infamy, he gets on his hands and knees and preps for a lifetime of fan letters and prison beatings.


More about the family coming out makes it pretty clear he had a fairly hands off, suburban, everything'll turn out OK 'cause he's a white guy upbringing. He wrote about playing off his parents' guilt over his depression and being able to use that to, uh, convince them he was still going to school? About how he stored his weapons and ammo for months in his room and even his siblings didn't ever notice them? How he was in some weird silver coin trading ring to make the money for his ammo and nobody was ever like, "Yo Payton, what's up with all the coins?"


His parents might not have played a significant role in what their kid set out to do, but it's probably an even worse look that they were housing this kid and just presumed he was the same generic failson their friends were raising and didn't notice any of the weird shit he was up to. I felt relatively free to get up to shit as a kid but even my parents knew when to drop some subtle nod they knew what dumb thing I was doing on the internet or whatever to shame me into stopping or realizing I'd have always been embarrassed to be doing it if somebody I knew knew what it was. It's starting to sound like this kid got to do absolutely whatever he wanted with his day between waking up and falling asleep and his parents just assumed it'd be uninteresting to them.


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