I have a family I need to attend to, job I need to attend to, as well as physical health I need to take care of. So I don't really feel as if "gloom and doom how do I go on."

But I just don't feel ok. Even with things starting to go "right" ... the lack of acknowledgement on how hard things got and the emotional need for a lot of individuals and society as a whole to demand that you pantomime normality ...

I can't call it. So much loss and and unacknowledged pain.