>the only thing that works is to be a bit buzzed on alcohol, I
>present as mellow and relaxed but there is always some tension
>somewhere inside, getting stoned however small always
>highlight things.
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>LOOK AT THIS SHIT. THIS NIGGA FEEL MAD UNCOMFORTABLE FOR NO
>REASON. THEY ALL KNOW. WE ALL KNOW.

in my experience — and this might not work for everyone — my highs got better and more consistently enjoyable when i got my mind and body right via diet, exercise, and mindfulness. when i was younger i could down caffeinated drinks and stay up all night and smoke and have a great time. that doesn't work now that i'm older and more (too) aware of my mental and physical state at all times. slight anxiety while sober can be a full blown panic attack when high. it sucks but it can be overcome with practice if you're diligent about what you put in your body and how you maintain your mental health via mindfulness, good sleep hygiene, and exercise, specifically cardio. again this is my experience alone but i think it might help if you haven't already pursued this option