>weed is out because of the anxiety and the health issue.

and your comment in a previous post about weed "making you lose your mind"

btw same to all of this. weed as a young person, encroaching anxiety as an adult, heavy drinking. that shit sucks and an overwhelming majority of folks don't understand what it takes to deal with it. it's a lot to go through and imo impressive to come out on the other side even nominally functional, and it seems like you've exceeded that. it takes a lot of willpower and discipline. you should be lauded for your efforts