everything feels so trivial, considering the state of this country we live in. I'm at work and it's almost impossible for me to care about this shit...yet, my mortgage company aint gonna chill on when that payment is due. Like...I just want to dig a hole. My wife is wondering if the Dec. 2021 cruise we paid for, over a year ago, is actually gonna happen. I'm wondering WTF is going to happen between now and inauguration day...and should a pickup another firearm to stash. I am operating at like 20% of who I am, it feels like.