in her honor. Sometimes i look at the videos I took on my phone from when we were at Bohemian Caverns in DC just so i can hear her voice again. She was so uplifting, supportive, and ahead of her time and I miss her dearly.

I think at the time I moved out of my parents house and moved in with Kleph i went from parents trying to control me to a partner trying to control me. I had no idea how to combat that so I became very defiant and I did not communicate or listen well to reasoning. I just assumed he didnt want me to go there and shine and build a reputation in that poetry scene. I felt that he felt I was very impressionable and trying to find my way and that I could easily change into something that wasn't me and lose myself. I feel that I did that with him too. I wanted to be so much like him and his opinion meant everything.

Looking back I see how I was unhealthy for him and vice versa. We were both young and I was more of a fan than a help meet.

I didn't speak up about things I should have and was very passive aggressive so precious time was wasted and opportunities were missed. But we definitely loved each other hard. I found this video of us talking but it depicts how we chilled, talked to each other, and laughed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxES3AgquOQ


“The Feminine of He” https://youtu.be/vaiZLFFEN38

MELa
Musically.Entertaining.Lyrically.Alluring.