>I hear you. We are in a horrendous perfect storm situation
>right now - I hope that you're able to find your piece of
>solace in this madness - whether here or elsewhere.

no matter how many different ways or times i say it, i feel like nobody hears me when i say i'm not ok. i'm the worst off mentally and emotionally than i've ever been in my life and i'm so good at faking being ok...

if i can't get out of the country, i'm working on being able to have a remote work job, get rid of most of my shit, and live in a small studio somewhere and get some therapy and write and just be alone for a while

that's the hope i have that keeps me sane...otherwise, i don't think i can survive this.

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