this will be the third one since i lost my dad AND since my separation.

first one wasnt too bad, maybe shock. i honestly dont remember what i did last year. i think i visited mom both years so that might just be blending together for me.

staying in town this year but at least my brothers coming to town.

ive been switching between feeling down and starting to get the itch to decorate. didnt decorate at all the past two years.

as a whole i think im doing better about losing my dad but it will creep up on me here and there.

gotta keep pushing.