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saw a request on our internal classifieds. submitted a 15 sec read and got the email today saying that I was picked!

I've been wanting to get into this stuff. so now I can learn it on company time and maybe take this outside of work.

Can't remember her username but she sent me a couple of links and she was really good.

I won’t get credit for it but I often wonder I the guy who is credited with it stole my shit.

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I made this icon back in the late 90’s. I have flyers to prove it too.

The original idea behind the logo was a simple way to show people linking up to create a party or a movement.

Makes me realize how simple it is to tell rappers in their early 20’s to have all their paperwork and documents in order. I wasn’t thinking about icons and copyrights back then. I was just trying to make sure our next show made a profit.

ugh, god. it's been a really really REALLY hard year because I've been doing a LOT of deep mental/psychology work to correct the shit I experienced in childhood.

For the longest time I thought I was mad about not having a dad and how that affected me, but after going deep into history I've just been learning how deep and generational the pain goes.

I went to the Af-Am Museum in DC a few weeks back and I just realized how close we are to slavery - which now makes all of my family generational trauma make a lot of sense.

Mom had a bad time and depression, grandma had a bad time and depression, grandpa had it bad, great grandma had it bad, great great grandma had it bad. It's not rocket science.

So I guess this is growing up, I'm learning the truth about family. The more I shake the tree, the more crazy secrets keep falling out and I'm finding shit no one else knows about.

I'm mad and sad and I still gotta be daddy and hold the family up. I wish I could just go on a vacation by myself for a few days and just live n silence. This shit is kinda totally too much.

it appears to be more mental which can lead to physical slavery. my grandmother
said to me before she died earlier this year, "shoot to kill"

my father grew up on a sharecropper's farm was enough. it really ain't far ENOUGH away for people to Cuban B it. Nor is the fight to get the right to join Capitalism™.

its been a painful four years but I’m thankful for the time. I’m much stronger.

Rejection, that is.... It's all good, though. My prayer is and always has been that the path that is for me is already in place. It's up to me to find it. This was not the path, so we move forward.

Had to be quick to turn it around and make the best of it but still got a well earned verbal spanking a couple of days later.

Funny thing is it was exactly what I needed to re-focus.

Now I look like the ass.

It will pass but I don’t like it at all.

Gotta get on my grind.

No point in trying to drop rhymes.

I’m doing HIIT right now, because next year I’m doing races
I wanna get in on that crit life baby.

Trying to get ready for a recession is difficult and time consuming.

It just dawned on me I might be a wee bit crazy but therapy is for white people. I was suicidal and then I stopped and now I'm kinda back in that space but I'm too lazy to do it yet.

The more news I read about current events in black society the more disappointed I get. We were wrong about Yvette... I'm not the guy that gets mad at interracial relationships but now I'm getting there:

I have a Guyanese female friend that fostered a child with a white man. No problem thus far. She invites me to a toxic masculinity seminar during black history month. *Anger intensifies* Then she takes her bady daddy's father for her real stepfather giddy as a puppy talking down on black men. *Anger intensifies* She says more questionable stuff but I'm chilling and wish her well. Don't attack me after you find happiness to prove yourself to white supremacy.

My homie just became a decorated a military vet and it's weird cause I know what he did in the streets... But he got out and made a better life.

It just messes me up to see where I was and how I've came to become the success I am today.