Thank you for the kind words. I have definitely changed the way I communicate with her, not only because of the discomfort she is feeling, but also to make sure I am saying those words that are important.

I am having so much self doubt its making me feel like in quicksand. I'm mad at myself for letting myself be like this, but then I think that this is how I am coping, then I get upset more, cuz why am I grieving if she hasn't passed yet and its possible she may not.

Its so confusing.