For me to fully convert to my current religion requires me to embrace all of the culture. Embracing the culture means turning my back on, admitting cultural inferiority, attacking my people, or otherwise doing things that lead to my ancestors in the after life being disappointed with me.

With all that said, I am naturally fully converted at least in conversations with people but friction exists within the culture itself. I could not 100 percent embrace someone that was fully in step with the culture because it's quite divisive, offensive, intolerant, and heavily confrontational in a micro aggressive way.

I am unsure if I could convert to Islam for someone I loved. That would be difficult but my situation is very difficult to deal with.