you talk about him constantly, so i would imagine you dwell on it a bit. you say you're trying to move on or whatever, but you remain in contact and he stays on your mind.

it just seems like you haven't moved on, to me. i'm rooting for you to because i think you really need to. but that's my limited, outside perspective. i can't really say for sure where you're at with this, only what's presented to me/us here.