Say it was something you really wanted and it was basically in your lap and you pissed it away?


How long does it take stop being angry with yourself?

Nothing pisses me off more than fucking up and having only my self to blame. I hate that shit.

>Nothing pisses me off more than fucking up and having only my
>self to blame. I hate that shit.



I'm having a real hard time letting it go

I usually get over shit kinda quickly, but at first I'm generally in an internal rage.

I don't get chances with smart & beautiful women often so yeah. I fucked it all up

I ruined it for both of us & I'm struggling to get over that fact, that it's all on me

Either try to get that shit back, or just learn from your fuck up and adjust accordingly moving forward. She's not the only chick out there. I know right now it feels like she is, I get it. But ya gotta move on if it's truly done.

I'm talking to someone out of state and she's telling me I have nothing to lose by reaching out. It's not like I don't or didn't have other options, this woman was just the most exciting. I need an equally exciting woman to be interested in me to forget this one

I think sometimes we beat ourselves up over shit without realizing the other decision would prolly have us doing the same thing.

I beat myself up over a financial decision I made years ago. It's not healthy.

>I think sometimes we beat ourselves up over shit without
>realizing the other decision would prolly have us doing the
>same thing.
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>I beat myself up over a financial decision I made years ago.
>It's not healthy.


I agree I talked myself out for a reason but I've never crashed and burned that spectacularly. I'm not saying it woulda been a perfect relationship but all I really had to do was land the plane safely instead I crashed and killed everyone on board

For real, I think I'm just not a healthy person

Divorce being the exception. I beat myself up about that for like two years.

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nah..I can't say

Once the adrenaline wears off then fuck it.

but I'm one a them 'brooding nxggas' so there's that.

I mean, good things have obviously happened in my life but I'm still stuck on this one fuck up

I really believe that I would have had a different life had I stayed at this event with Madlib and shafiq from SRCP.

Like..I felt like my dreams of some kinda music career were gonna happen.

then my wife called and said she was going into labor. It turned out to be false...but I felt like that was my 'moment' and I resented my wife for a looooong time. Then I resent myself for resenting basically 'doing the right thing'

so....how you wanna live, god?


you might think that was THE ONE...but maybe the universe got something else waiting for you. I don't think there is a 'one'..I think YOU are the 'one' and the one you really want will match up like a puzzle piece.


but thass me.

That's a though situation. You did do the "right thing" bruh, I didn't lol

But the feeling of missing out is still there so I definitely feel you. I for sho don't want to beat myself up every few minutes thinking about my screw up. It's sucks cause I was all ready for everything to be coming up Milhouse but I guess this is what I get for identifying with Milhouse in the first place lol

I don't believe in the one either, I just know I don't get too many seemingly perfect prospects that are feeling me back but I guess I can only focus on making more chances for myself.

> focus on making more chances for myself.

from my teenage years lol

but it really depends on the situation...

Going back 30 years.

~ ~ ~
All meetings end in separation
All acquisition ends in dispersion
All life ends in death
- The Buddha

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Every hundred years, all new people

working on it though. it's hard. trying to have a bad long-term memory about that stuff but it keeps popping in without my consent

I think a key difference between ppl who are able to forgive themselves and people who can't, is that the first group just naturally has shitty memory and the second group has elephant memory.