dedicated to the regs

not feeling too positive today
dealing with alternating anger and sadness

but i woke up today
and i'll continue growing and learning and strengthening and maybe one day i'll have a better outcome

I have a 4 day weekend next week

Im ending this year resolving to do better next year

my health is improving

holiday house party with friends tomorrow

I think I have New Years plans

things have to get better but they could be far worse

has been home improvement

or like

quality of home - in a rented apartment actual hammer and nail home improvement options are limited

but purging through all my shit, dumping what's funky or unused, organizing and rearranging what's left, getting some nice new things

keeping better routines around tidiness, investing in deep cleaning

upgrading things like lighting, hanging new art, addressing neglected repair issues

these things have helped me feel ok more than anything else. still feel pretty shitty some days, but when my sleeves are rolled up on tasks like this, i feel pretty good

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so looking forward to some time off over the holidays. ironic since i'm staring down the barrel of unemployment some time in spring 2016 - but fuck it the week or whatever is needed and will be nice. excited to continue to manicure my home, and to head out of town for a few days

I haven't seen him since July 11th.
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Made it through a rough year in a new position

Off work until January 4th

Company gave out Apple Watches as the holiday gift this year

Positive Friday indeed....

if they don't stop harassing me and let me work