>My mother loved me--but my grandmother showed me what love
>truly was.
>
>--------------
>April 29, 2002
>
>My mom passed. we had an argument some months prior and we
>hadn't spoke for a long while. Out of the blue, she called me
>two weeks before her passing telling me she didn't think she
>was gonna be here much longer---I responded with a passive
>"yeah, right, you ain't going no where. You're stubborn and
>bull headed as a mule. Hard but hardy.
>
>She apologized and said she loved me--- I said "Okay".
>
>and we hung up.
>
>She passed 13 years ago today.
>
>I never got to say goodbye. Mothers day was a couple of days
>after her passing. I remember being in TJ Maxx while everyone
>was last minute shopping for Mothers Day gifts.
>
>I never cried so hard or so publicly in my whole life---right
>there in the middle of the store. I was jealous of everyone in
>that muhphucka that still had some one they could buy a gift
>for and apologize to. Eyes watery, face long, nose snotty as
>I made my way from the store to the parking lot.
>
>As a result, I make it a habit to always say good bye.

as someone who's recently lost his mom not too long ago (2 yrs now) I can't even imagine the amount of additional anguish I would've been in had I not gotten the chance to be next to her during her passing.

this truly made my heart heavy

peace, brother.