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12771743, my thoughts on depression
Posted by initiationofplato, Fri Apr-03-15 01:38 PM
I think part of the reason that nothing can "cure" it is because nothing is wrong that can be fixed with an external force. I am not suggesting that real symptoms do not manifest because they clearly do, and you can control some of them with medication that has an effect on your biology. At the core, when you get to the bottom of someone's depression, it is always a rationally constructed *irrational emotional and physical reaction* to a trigger event determined by external forces. The trigger event is always associated with the individual's history and experience in life and what they are emotionally susceptible to.

We are all conditioned with the idea of beauty, wealth, popularity, financial security, material prosperity, love, fulfillment, enjoyment, gratification, etc. We enter a schooling and social system which essentially assess our ability to conform to and make use of these tools to *PERSONAL* advantage. We become convinced that our fulfillment and self worth is based on these principles. We are driven by a hyper reality which exists in our minds, one where we achieve A, B, or C. We have chosen to conform to external forces, which also come with a set of emotional responses. We are also led to believe that our very survival is directly associated to our mastership of the ideas (finding the best mate based on your "credentials").

Depression is a direct reflection of how we believe we measure up to or how we interact with the public domain. "I am x years old, I should be x, with x, for x reasons." We have not been taught to deal with internal forces of deep introspection, inner vision, inner seeking, inner dreaming and feeling, etc. More importantly, we are not given the time to learn about our inner self because it takes a great deal of energy, devotion and also a lot of maturity and discipline, but inevitably, you are forced to jump into the rat race to survive, and not just financial but in every aspect dealing with social status and prestige, and you are unable to discover or analyze your true self because you are dealing with the onslaught of irrational emotional and physical reactions you draw from your hyper reality.

The path to our depression is always different from one another, but they all share the same physical symptoms. It's that telling in itself? If it was an objective cause/medical problem, it would all stem from the same source but it does not, so therefore, it *must* be subjective.

Depression is a poorly lit room which is full of mirrors. When you are depressed, you point the finger at the world, and it inevitably the same finger points back at you, and you point back at the world, and it points back at you, because ultimately, it comes down to you and how you have chosen to measure yourself in those mirrors.

Physical symptoms are a testament to the power of consciousness. Some people break out into hives when they stand in front of a crowd. Others can make their hearts race, suck all the energy from their limbs, faint, vomit, lose sleep, etc etc. Some people make themselves believe that they have a multitude of disorders and diseases. They are able to produce real physical reactions, and look for ways to confirm and treat them. Someone who is more frail, whom is running a race against an athlete will lose, and not because they are a worse person, but because they don't have the right tool for the job. A body that is not taken care of and respected will not perform as well against anxiety and depression, but both anxiety and depression are important to understanding the inner self and why it reacts the way it does. Could depression be a defense mechanism ?