...we still have so much to talk about and clarify and make understood and understand and plan and readjust to but i'd be lying if i said i didn't feel like a million pound weight was lifted from off my chest. the resentfulness the loneliness the sadness the hate and confusion......i get to let it all go. first time around we kinda just jumped in without much discussion re: expectations. this time we have had (a whole lotta) time to reflect on expectations, what we need from one another and what we owe to one another as far as commitment goes and from what we've discussed so far, i trust that he gets it. hearing him out was worth it.

...i don't know how to tell my family. but i guess i should wait til we catch up more.

...i eat and drink too much junk.