Nada for now..buried later.

But I understand both sides of the debate.

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

and it has not been for the better, so I have to reevaluate my communication methods with some people, ignore others, celebrate many, and speak with less emotion. At the end of the day, most of the attacks are not about me anyway, but I have not always helped the matter because in my humanity I have taken things personal at times.

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

I used to snap on people immediately.
I had to catch myself and realize FB is not OKP.
It literally took months to get out of the habit
of jumping down someone's neck if they didn't agree
with me on a status. LOL

I post things and KIM, it's just something about the darkness in this place. OKPm is like the Roman Coliseum.

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

Fuck your fort!

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"And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful." ~ 2 Tim 2:4

that she and I can both move on. She was a great woman and probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. But at this point in my life I am not built for marriage. Maybe it's the selfish virgo in me. I collect experiences and get bored quickly. Usually after 2 years in a serious relationship. I hope and pray she finds someone that is worthy of her love and dedication. I never was, well maybe for a bit.

I know some folks just are built for that lifestyle.

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

the physical connection in bed. IF I can find a woman just like her that rocks my world sexually and has a career making more money than me I would marry again.

With a pre up though. I aint tryna pay alimony or loose half my pension. the Marriage laws have got to change it's so unfair how the person that makes the most bread gets treated in divorce.

I got lucky this time since she isn't tryna screw me.

>the physical connection in bed. IF I can find a woman just
>like her that rocks my world sexually and has a career making
>more money than me I would marry again.
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I was talking to an old head that's been married for 34 years and he told me tht for the first 10 years of his marriage the sex was the worst, like sexing a tree log. His wife was so put off by sex and she was not willing to do anything to spice it up. She even told him that if he wanted to have an affair that she would understand. He refused to go that route. They went to counseling, talked about things, worked into some areas and eventually worked things out. Not he said she's like an animal and that on some nights he's hesitant to go upstairs because of how wide open and freaky she is..




>With a pre up though. I aint tryna pay alimony or loose half
>my pension. the Marriage laws have got to change it's so
>unfair how the person that makes the most bread gets treated
>in divorce.
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>I got lucky this time since she isn't tryna screw me.


I hear you.


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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

Even the mid 30s muhfuckas want "turn up" hip-hop?! Word?! I know having music with content in it makes the grind harder but this is RIDICULOUS! I know the music is dope but I have to find the people that care

still pretty manic and it might be getting worse but I find it's easier to handle when I have a project or a task

I've been working on lyrics for the past two weeks and basically working with this kat tryna lay stuff down so we'll have material for a band... it's been pretty exciting and it's wild how committed I've been. I just need to find a drummer.

Lost my phone yesterday and I still have no idea how... day drinking is going to be cut to a minimum now cuz yesterday afternoon was so not cute :-/




"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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my morbidity.

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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

a time, I actually thought that was going to be my career path.


You make a killing *rim shot* but then I am reminded of the ridicule and stigma that goes with being a funeral director etc...It's one of those fields that few women wanna date someone in yet, it's one of those businesses that people ALWAYS want the hook up on.

and business is not going to dry up anytime soon.


>a time, I actually thought that was going to be my career
>path.
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>You make a killing *rim shot* but then I am reminded of the
>ridicule and stigma that goes with being a funeral director
>etc...It's one of those fields that few women wanna date
>someone in yet, it's one of those businesses that people
>ALWAYS want the hook up on.
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I can understand, the same thing happens with clergy. But you have a woman, so you are good.



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"Today is your day to have a better life -- it's your right."

are ppl choosing the lower cost options when it comes to the various aspects of the biz?

even the cheapo options are profitmakers

someone who is no longer living.

it's absurd.

As Selah said below, the mark up is astronomical.


I'll tell anyone in a heartbeat to join a Cremation Society and pa for your cremation upfront and it'll cost you on avg about $800...or if your loved ones are able they can try to make direct contact with a crematory upon your death and you might be able to get cremated for less than $500....even going through a funeral home will cost you though and most average around $2000+/- depending on the urn and if you still want a cremation burial site.

I wish I hadn't heard some of the stories about what was on that embalming table.

It's whatever, but I still won't like it. I'm used to it at this point.

Isn't it true that effective communication takes TWO parties? Specifically, the two actively-involved parties, as opposed to one party and their girl, or one party and their homeboy? That's what I thought. I swear I'm not losing my marbles...

My step-sis, as usual, hit me with some vital game going forward.

The homeboy seriously needs my help but my hands are seriously tied. He's in hell right now. Wish I could return there and set up shop. I'm damn sure I'd be doing better there, where the grass truly is greener.

The annoying repetition at the j.o. helps me understand why niggas hate that department.

I shouldn't still be this selfish at 40. This part of me was supposed to had died off by now.

No more time for glad handling at arm's length, b.

Be aware of the pictures they want to paint of you, based on limited/slanted information. If there's any painting gonna be done, make sure you're the nigga holding the brush.

Don't let anybody Wyclef you, is all I'm saying.

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Your typing ain't as "incendiary" as you think it is.

1. I am being asked to remain positive, supportive and honest... which under normal circumstances would not be an issue... but I don't believe in the parties that are involved... I have seen this story and I know how it ends... I see no commitment from them and pretty much know they will do what they have done all along... I am trying and hoping I am wrong...

2. I am really looking forward to spring/summer this weather has messed up my mood and way of life.

3. I need to get on ordering my anniversary gift before I run out of time...

4. that Kendrick album is not for me... not that it's bad
just not what I consider a good album

its' getting to the point that the process is so unenjoyable that I don't care about the benefit of smoking. I go into these coughing fits and I'm drinking ice cold water to soothe it. Obviously my throat is messed up. I tried googling and to no avail. I think I had a mild upper respiratory infection that opened up my chest and throat. I had a cough for a few months and since then, its all been bad unless I'm smoking super slow. I can't deal. However, if I stop smoking, I will stop eating all the junk food.

I wish I could stop procrastinating. When I actually put my mind too and apply myself, I can do anything. But it's getting to that point BEFORE I have no time left. I literally wait until the last minute. Any tips on how to focus and do work would be greatly appreciated.

Been without soda and sweets since Lent. I find myself missing the sweets way more than I miss soda.

You should get a water bong. The hot smoke is irritating your throat, put some ice water in the bong and it will cool the smoke. Equally, you may be demonstrating an allergic reaction to thc. Our bodies are naturally allergic to it. It's good to take breaks, let your body recover, trust me.

a bong would help, but because the smoke is cooled it's real easy to accidently take too big of a hit. A vaporizer takes the smoke out of it and is much healthier too.

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"Sometimes I contemplate moving to a warmer place, then the lake and skyline give me a warm embrace" © Common

and my throat filled up with a lot more phlegm. The pure thc really irritated my throat, to the point where I started wheezing. I read that it can happen to some people that show stronger allergic symptoms to thc. The vapor can also get really hot.

After everything is said and done, I've basically just had to quit. Not going to get high for at least 2 to 3 month's to give my body a chance to clear the thc in my cells and take it from there.

actually i think in the mean time, I will pause and get my life together. its' irritating and it HURTS.

Or Irish waterfall whatever. I've never been able to straight up inhale because it kills my throat. I always opt for the waterfall because of this. a vaporizer would be better, but that lil trick may help in the meantime

Or even try a bud bomb. The smoke doesn't bother me when I use one.

i recently had this tootsie roll kinda thing called a cheeba chew. Pretty close to the size of an actual tootsie roll and a third will have you feeling good. I need to find more.

Schedule a 30 minute time slot for your start and just do it.

In college our department chair taught a lecture hall class and it was like 50% psychology.

You just have to start and not worry about the outcome or if the idea is good or a plan to get the project to completion is there.

I, too, have had many ignorant and racist things to say regarding the state of race relationship in America in my youth, but the last few years and everything that has been going on has really shaken me from my ignorant perception. I finally understand why black people get angry when a white face tells them how to deal with racism, ie. "offer a loving hand", "not all white people are bad", "black people are racist too", "black people call each-other by the n word all the time", etc etc. It's all bullshit and it should all be spat at. I used to say all that dumb shit and now I just feel stupid and betrayed by the establishment and education system that was supposed to make me into a honorable man. This system is corrupt and it treats black people like trash. Black lives clearly do not matter and I don't understand how such a primitive and asinine perception can still reign in 2015. I do not have a single doubt of that anymore. It's at the point where I would volunteer to get punched in the face for some of the dumb shit I used to spew.

On the flip side, I am amazed at the patience black people have shown. This past year, I swear, I was expecting black people to lose their minds. All those killings, all that injustice, being blamed for your own murders, being murdered on fucking camera, snipers pointed at mothers holding babies protesting the killing of innocent black people, and still, you took it on the chin. I do not doubt that black people are the most forgiving on the planet. I don't know how you continue to take so much shit and still keep trying to make it in a system that clearly does not give a fuck about you. You have given the world the best music, culture, and made America cool, not only that, you build this country on your backs, and to this day, they.do.not.give.a.fuck.about.you. How do you do it? Black people, you are amazing, and if you need to punch someone in the face, punch me.

I can only get so heated about the current state of affairs....
Why???
Because I'm conscious of the things that my predecessors endured to allow for me to have the right to even voice my displeasure about the current state of affairs.
Most of us are.

The majority has been trying to break the spirit and resolve of people of color for generations....it's almost amusing if it weren't so sad....

She asked me who is rather be Richard Pryor, Eddie Murphy, or Dave Chappelle.
I laughed and said Chappelle by far, that talent, money, and fame aside, every single day is a better day for a black man in America than the days before it.
I don't think she appreciated my follow up laugh, but it's the reality that we gave every day.

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Don't though.

My son's room is big. Minus whale be bigger than ours since his bed and wardrobe are half the size. Bigger than our last living room. Might be bigger than the living room now. Lucky little joker, WHY DO I STILL HAVE LEGOS ALL OVER THE NEW LIVING ROOM THOUGH? I GOT YOU THIS BIG FUCKING MUSEUM TO PLAY IN AND I STILL GET LEGOS OUT IN MY GARDEN AND SHIT!

Speaking of play room though my office(whispers: mancave) is evolving into the shiznit but I need another bookshelf. Ugh. Gotta get that couch and table first. Can't believe I swung this. Can't believe that heifer wasn't gonna take it after she bugged me about it. Nutass mofo.

As always looking for more Goonies to join me at Ouvertes Caves, Openair Frauenfeld, and other shit this year if anyone wants in on this crazy shit. Come one, come all.

Life is good. Have some with me.

It's a serious problem.
I understand a LOT folks don't agree..
and...I get it.
I get the 'why' behind it's permanence in Black culture...
I get the ambition behind 'taking the power away from the word'....
But...I think it's bullshit...because i'm willing to bet that a large percentage of us that use it do it simply out of convenience and habit...and sheer laziness.

Listening to this Kendrick album...and i'm just saddened by the pervasiveness of it throughout. I'd LOVE to share so much of this part of our culture with my little one. I think it's a huge part of who I am as a man, and who WE are as a people in 2015. But....I refuse to bring her up with any semblance of complacency or acceptance that a derogatory term is somehow no longer derogatory....the fact that it's such a permanent fixture in the language of our art form is really depressing.

That word doesnt have that same sting it had to us.

But the guy I want is evasive... So annoying...

I got sub par head from this chick that under any other circumstances I wouldn't be attracted to, would annoy the hell out of me & wouldn't be caught dead in public around. She's been sweating me for the longest & I would keep my distance since she has emotional issues but that night I was bored so I met up wit her, she bought me some beer (with a bow on it, smh) got in the car & we talked about her deranged life & next thing u know...NECK.

After I bust I immediately I saw all the shit that disgusted me about her x 10000000.

The next day she text me about her kids fundraiser. Easy pussy is my Achilles
Fuck your fort!

please know this abt yourself. dont be mistaken.


does it really matter?

wonder what bin's doing?
http://i.imgur.com/phECCMp.jpg

I really do.

I would have played better and longer without the aches and pains

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then get out there and wonder why i can barely breathe during suicides lol

>then get out there and wonder why i can barely breathe during
>suicides lol


LOL - Heck Naw



Man, I never lifted weight in school either. Dang Shame.



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"And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful." ~ 2 Tim 2:4

I'm trying. I'm trying so hard.

I'm working out twice a day now, getting out in nature (which is like my church). Eating better.
I've got a new job and looking into another, so I might have 2.5 jobs, aka money to get out of here.

But nothing is stopping this feeling, like a giant stone was placed on my chest.
Sometimes I think it will dissipate with my situation, that once I'm finally "free"
then I can finally breathe again. Other times I worry that it's a life-long affliction.
That depression will rob me of any real joy no matter how much better my life gets.

It's not even that I'm striving for happiness. I don't think we're supposed
to be happy all the time. I'm just trying to attain some kind of well-being.

reminds me of the badu song:

got a good book and got all in it
tried a little yoga for a minute
but it wont let go

tried to turn the sauna up to hotter
drunk a whole jar of holy water
but it wont let go

i hope that you are able to break free
of whatever is holding you hostage

getting out in nature (which
>is like my church).

working out. eating good. getting your god on. thats abt all you can do

But that wasn't my first choice & it's not a path for everyone. I bring this up because for me, working harder at changing the situation hit a results ceiling and your post reminded me of that.

Someone close to me is dealing with a very debilitating depression and I spent a lot of time researching it. The best lecture I have come across:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOAgplgTxfc

I highly encourage you to watch it to understand what you are dealing with.

Also, I noticed a lot of negative language that I am sure must be constantly spinning in your mind:

"But nothing is stopping this feeling, like a giant stone was placed on my chest.
Sometimes I think it will dissipate with my situation, that once I'm finally "free"
then I can finally breathe again. Other times I worry that it's a life-long affliction.
That depression will rob me of any real joy no matter how much better my life gets."


Finally, you can sense the desperation in these words:

"It's not even that I'm striving for happiness. I don't think we're supposed
to be happy all the time. I'm just trying to attain some kind of well-being."

First and foremost, you have to stop thinking, or at the very least, stop rehearing the same thoughts. There is no end to them, they will continue to cycle over and over and over. Also, I am sure much of those thoughts are associated with the past. Another grave pitfall. The past is insoluble. You are attempting to reconcile something that is beyond your reach, in this lifetime, or the next.

The brain is habitual. You have to train it to think other things. You have trained your brain to constantly mash the negative language that is so heavy with doubt and fear that your brain is doing what you trained it to do. You're essentially on depression autopilot because that is what you have chosen to fill your mind with.

Eating well, getting out, its all good, but, it will not be your saving grace. You are your own saving grace, and especially, everything you are choosing to think. You have to catch yourself in the process of falling into those insoluble spirals, and unlearn those thoughts.

1. It's very difficult.
2. It takes a bit of time and training.
3. You have to be patient with yourself.

1. Watch the lecture I posted.
2. Write down everything you are upset or depressed about.
3. Burn it and throw it in the trash. It is done.
4. Practice thinking positive thoughts.
5. Suggest positive ways to feel good about yourself, to yourself. ie. "I will feel good today." "I forgive myself." "I am priceless." "I am worthy." "I am good." "The universe is good." "The universe wants me to succeed."

Learn to say that instead of: "What if this never goes away." "I feel I should at last feel normal, but I don't.", etc etc. You have given those thoughts a chance, and look where it has taken you. It's time to drop them completely.

>It's not even that I'm striving for happiness. I don't think
>we're supposed
>to be happy all the time. I'm just trying to attain some kind
>of well-being.

For me it's not even wanting a sense of well being, but a sense of normalcy. The urge to do more than just grudgingly go to work, then come home and collapse in misery. I'm not there. I don't know if I'll get there. At this point in life, I doubt that i'll get there.

I do wish you good luck, not trying to be a debbie downer.

hang in there and try not to give up hope.

This is the first time I'm admitting that outloud and...telling people. That's big for me.

I'm not trying to win any Academy Awards. That's not my objective at all.

But after checking out that Queen of Glory trailer, I'm thinking: I can do something like that.

Where to begin, though?

This is what I'm talking about, btw:

http://www.okayafrica.com/news/queen-of-glory-nana-mensah-film-trailer/

I'm starting by just taking improv classes at the moment. There's literally classes for everything though.


My neighbor literally does poetry for a living, like that's his job and it's legit. He put me on to some improv classes hosted by cipha sounds that I'm going to check out.

What's the worst that can happen, right?

he just is
he is always there for me

so i was really happy and excited to give him 2 tickets to see bjork tonight and he doesn't have to take me (im tired!)

he really deserves it. if not more.

he's helped me in these last few years when it was really, truly hard for me. whether it be beers at a bar or letting me live on his couch for three weeks because my live in boyfriend and i broke up or lending me $20 so i wouldn't overdraw my bank account. he's the best.

i'm just glad i am finally rebounding a lil bit and could do this for him

happy birthday. herb.

Like, I'm trying to remember the last time I had one that wasn't so awesome. It's been YEARS. But it happened last night. I guess it's all the more disappointing since I had high hopes for this one given prior interaction. But it was just very meh. But hey, at least I'm out there again?

I'm also thankful to be starting back at work. Since everything's gone down, I'd only worked maybe six shifts since 2015 began. I'm happy I had the savings to buoy me, but fuck, looking at my bank account now is hella depressing. Time to go back to grind and save mode again. Though I'm thinking of taking a trip across the pond sometime before my passport expires in July. This experience has taught me to choose happiness in all aspects, so if I wanna travel, dammit, I'm gonna travel.

Speaking of travel, really looking forward to this cruise next month. Gonna drink all the rum. And maybe find some handsome man to make out with.

Speaking of handsome men to make out with, met this one guy last weekend who's kind of a big deal, and he was very obviously diggin me. But in an attempt to not be a groupie, I chilled. Maybe too hard. But thanks to social media, we've begun a dialogue. Who knows what the future holds?

I'm not 100% back to normal, but I'm getting ever so closer to it. Maybe the therapy IS helping? lol

Scary Happy because now I'm having urges to throw everything else to side and focus on it.

...i dont understand how anyone could be so cruel and think theyre actually helping you and get indignant when you mention they are not blameless in your situation. i hate that this is where loving someone deeply enough to have their child has led me and i just have to deal. like what the fuvk is that. the shit seriously makes me want to fucking break shit something anything to make people see how wrong he is. i would be heartbroken if my son wound up like him.

...its some ppl that annoyed me on here that ive grown to like on other social media platforms. piggybacking off of case one's confession it is weird that this particular corner of the internet changes the way people interact with others for some reason.

...can't wait til i get off work so i can drink. thats the type of mental space i am in right now and thats not where i want to be but here i am. not trying to get lit to hard like last week though. i don't need that.

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it's true what they say...people are strange, when you're strangers.

not compassionate....only polite.

I am not like you at all and i cannot pretend.

i've almost always had a rough idea of what i want to accomplish within 5 years
and havent had that in a while
im feeling a bit un-anchored

for a moment there, living in s.sudan was pretty much all i wanted to do
and i came back to school with a pretty clear idea of how to do that
with the hope that these next few years would help me focus that vision further and make it feasible
instead it has me wondering wtf im doing in baltimore and where the fuck im headed
instead of clafying im feeling off-kilter

so... i think i need a refocus, and rethink.

One word: AMAZEBALLS!!!!
I don't think I've ever had this much time dedicated to celebrating me.
Like my day is one day and that's it.
I've been at it since I clocked out last thurs lol
Days leading up we're amazing.
Denver was breathtaking.
Stevie was an out-of-body experience. If you haven't seen this tour? Do eeet!!
I realized I would smoke more if it was legalized here.
They are so thorough and knowledgable.
You basically tell them how you wanna feel and they set you up for a nominal fee.
Got some edibles home for my hooligans in brooklyn lol
Shipped my sis a vape starter kit.
I went high up in them mountains. Never been that far up in my life.
Saw deer and shit. Mad serene.
Was loved up on and highly appreciated
And now I'm spending the next 2 days recuperating.lol
32 starting off skrong!!

>Stevie was an out-of-body experience. If you haven't seen this
>tour? Do eeet!!

I think he is a fifth level wizard. Im still on a high after the show and it was back in November 2014

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=de6VnExhelQ

Presenting Collective Peace.

https://www.facebook.com/CollectivePeace

My girl is going to Denver in May. I can't go because of Makossa lol

my boss mentions in passing


*sigh*

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When you are born, you cry, and the world rejoices. Live so that when you die, you rejoice, and the world cries.
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You cannot hate people for their own good.

We's broke right now, but shit is about to change.

Left the doctors office, went to breakfast and talked about moving to the LA once the baby is born.

oh yeah, and we's broke right now.

but I get paid in 2 days. So we ate and hopped in the whip and my wife threw on her favorite new song by Kendrick!!!

WE GONE BE ALLLLRIGHT!!!

bcuz I'm goofy and find stuff like that funny...
imagine being in a meeting...they doin the roundtable and when they ask you for an update you just blurt that out...

--I think I've got a sports hernia...I think I've had it since I was 15 and just fought thru it...spent my whole hs football career with this...if anybody know of any good hip flexor/groin stretches... I'm all ears...I aint doin surgery

--I typed out a long apology on here but it aint save/post...I won't re-type...whatever gene/cell/neuron/factor mofos have that makes em commit, be emotionally available and can get it right...I applaud u... I don't have it...I get right to the edge of the water...put my snorkel on, floaties, life jacket, can swim my ass off, water aint too deep..it's warm, nice....but no...i'll just stand at the edge and dip my toe in... I think the word for it is a fool... smh

--I need some new shades

i already tweeted it
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When you are born, you cry, and the world rejoices. Live so that when you die, you rejoice, and the world cries.
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You cannot hate people for their own good.

I'm tryna figure out why dudes keep approaching me on a business tip then switch it up to holla behaviour
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I am trying my best of working on misevaluating relationships. I seem to always think I'm closer to people than they think we are I think it's cause I talk too much and share too much-I need to stop unfortunately I am not so good at balance
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I had a real convo with my mom regarding age and quality of life mad deep..it was good to express myself
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I wonder how much money I would get for one of my eggs? I mean they alittle stale but they still viable I think :/ #brokethoughts

>I'm tryna figure out why dudes keep approaching me on a
>business tip then switch it up to holla behaviour
>--


If the word "keep" suggests a repeated, continual pattern, you appeal to them.

I feel so much bitter and resentment towards my current boss and work environment in general, and I hate it. I don't even believe in that new age snake oil positive thinking bullshit, but shit feels so toxic. It's making me be a person that's not me. It disgusts me.

I just want my booty rubbed, my hair played with, and a strong, warm leg wrapped around me... #toomuchtoask?

#whensinglelifelooksblah



"i wanna hug all u idiotic bastards & then set you all on fire" -Bin

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About to make a run right now. I wish I didn't have points on my MVR. I could do this full time.

Been trying to not sweat my b/f so much. I tell him I miss him. He doesn't respond.

Met a 23 y/o yesterday. He's a professional praise crumper. He's a cutie.

The police officer at my job wants to holler. He's older though. But he's foine.... *shrugs*

I broke my vibrator last week. #desperatemeasures #dramaensues

>Met a 23 y/o yesterday. He's a professional praise crumper.
>He's a cutie.

http://youtu.be/POU61XI0tCU

>>Met a 23 y/o yesterday. He's a professional praise crumper.
>>He's a cutie.

...but that's by far the most interesting thing in that post.

Everything is okay
Smooth sailing
We are moving right along
He still makes me smile

and said my grace.....


time to eat...

Recorded vocals for the first time in MANY years. Went through so
many different emotions, not in a dramatic way but including...
confidence, doubt, anxiousness, accomplishment, etc. Ready to be used
to recording again so I'll be doing it as much as possible!

Operation: get in shape, is still going very well!