this person you thought was X turned out to be Y

and the problem becomes
1) what did YOU not see or miss that you should have?
2) how to not drag this untrusting-ness into the future

i dont think there is a solution to 2. which is precisely why so many of my 30+ yr olds are walking wounded right now suffering emotional PTSD from shit that happened in undergrad or before...unable to fully trust. unable to really let people in. uncomfortable w/ their feelings or those of others...& therefore cruising on a inch deep wave of superficial bullshit, never talking. never revealing. always protective of their precious lil inner selves & hurt

hence:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LOgMWbDGPA


does it really matter?

for all my fans who keep my name in their mouth: http://i.imgur.com/v2xNOpS.jpg