i wanted to scream & rail & tell them & everyone they knew how foul i had been done...& it rapidly occured to me...nobody GAF.

what i thought was...was not. i had been living in a dream of my own making while that other person was getting their shit together and when it was time to go...they went because they were abt their life, their business...not our business or our life...much less my business or my life

doing that does noting but make you further complicit in your own victimhood...because after all...if they hurt you...its because YOU allowed them to. you let em in you trusted them...so while they were foul...YOU were stupid. & no amount of slow singing or flower bringing can alter that concrete fact.

when youve been really emotionally fucked over...there is no cure. theres no solution...except time.

good luck to your "friend"



does it really matter?

for all my fans who keep my name in their mouth: http://i.imgur.com/v2xNOpS.jpg