12694424, that feeling terrifies me|
Posted by BabySoulRebel, Fri Jan-09-15 02:11 PM
i flip-flop back and forth between concern and apathy at the thought of my father and/or his mother dying.
I know whatever grief I'd feel for the loss of my grandmother won't come anywhere near my cousins' who grew up with her and were preferred by her.
At this point my father is closer with one of my cousins than he is with me. Sometimes it hurts, most times it's hard to miss someone who gave me a lot but was never really there.