aunt (RIP), and the rest of your family. may the Lord grant you peace and comfort in these days.

*sigh*.

i'm very glad that her transition was not as difficult as you had feared, from what I remembered of the other post. i'm glad that her soul is at rest.

i pray your strength (and that of your father in the coming days).

please know, however, that those tears are needed, and inevitable. but i understand the impetus to say 'not now... not yet'. they will come, and they will come in buckets.

being strong for your dad, however, includes allowing him to see that being strong includes acknowledging and responding to those feelings. i don't know how he is... but maybe if you cry around him, rather than making him sad, you give him emotional cover to let HIS feelings out. (if i recall correctly, she pretty much raised him so this is like him burying his mother, right?)

he's gonna need to get those tears out.

and those tears will wash over you. and they'll help wash away the memories of your aunt's last days and weeks. the sadness will never truly go away. but those tears will wash away enough of the recent memories to allow you to more clearly see and distinguish your more true memories of your aunt's truest self -- the person you and your family loved and depended on.


peace & blessings,

x.