I am very grateful to be able to feed and shelter my family. Nobody can take us all in, if something happens to me...my children's lives would be upended and never the same. So I'm hella grateful

But like...I'm facing a growing sense of dissatisfaction. They don't want...but need more. More space. Their own dedicated bathroom as they get older. Better local services, Juan and nem take over our local playground every weekend. I need to make more money

But I'm really at capacity...work wise. I'm tapped out. I'm mentally exhausted. I'm physically drained. I get up at hella early and go hard til hella late...6 days a week. And I know I'm planting the seeds now for future growth but what good will that future be if I'm dead and can't take advantage of it?

Also, I'm at that age where mfers start getting old and sick. My home has high blood pressure. Dude is like 42. My honegirl has pre diabetes...how that sbit happen, I dunno, she's a vegetarian. Its just hella real.

Add on various other things & yeah. I'm stressed as sbit


does it really matter?

for all my fans who keep my name in their mouth: http://i.imgur.com/v2xNOpS.jpg