he's not set to get out until january 2016.

that's a long time. More than I think I'm willing to give. I love this dude with all my heart, but I can't put my baby through this over his dumb ass decision.


a former flame is really trying his hardest to put himself back in my life. On paper he is everything I could want and then some. In the bedroom he is everything I could want and then some. But my heart still lies with my jailbird.

I'm torn...the stress of all of this stuff plus work has lead me back to cigarettes. I thought I was done.