Especially if I recognize I've made an error somewhere.


But all I really need is a guy who appreciates me openly...so I can feel validated and wanted. I know I am a prize, but when I feel unappreciated instead of just leaving I become kinda evil. I'm too sensitive really. That is my gift and curse.

But in my current sitch I allowed myself to start a family with the guy. Something I thought I'd never do. I'm still battling with the best way to handle that decision. I never wanted to have a split family. I love the fact that my parents are still together. I want that for my children. But it has gotten to the point that I don't even look at him. Like he walks in the room and I don't even turn my head.