I'm a totally different country in which every aspect of my life is challenged on a daily basis but to bounce? Even for a set period of time to improve my situation? Not even close to an option. My situation is so bad that leaving for a second is suggested to me by friends and family on a regular basis.. I even hate that I have to split time with them so I'm totally incapable of comprehending how one can justify, even a flawed person, leaving their offspring in the cold.

twice in your life?

On the other hand you didn't create it so trying to find understanding is for your benefit but as a parent? Zero fucks given for him..