I hope it finds you well.

Mental illness is a very real and debilitating condition and it can turn anyone who has a seemingly nice and normal life into a shell of who they would be otherwise.

As far as your current condition, I saw a video of a young woman who was coming to terms with coping with OCD for quite a long time. She said, "I have OCD, but OCD doesn't have me."

Just some food for thought.