I have ocd. I used to see someone for it....years ago.

I have mostly symmetry, some mild counting/finding patterns, and GERM issues. I used to have rituals to keep people safe. That's the thing that tipped my therapist off.

I've gotten a lot better over the years,but I still have rough times.

it's interesting that you mentioned wanting to cut your hand off. when I was a kid, if something gross got on my hand, i would just stop using it to eat or touch anything that would touch me. crazy looking back at it.i don't know how nobody noticed.

again, good luck. you can overcome this.