>
>1) the word "nigger" doesn't
>feel much like a term
>of endearment right now.
>i don't feel much like
>using that word even in
>play anymore.

You not alone on this, my brother. I was making this point on the Okayartist board(to another brother named, DPFan4life I think that's his name. My apologies if I spelled his name wrong).
I've struggled with this word for a while, now I cringe when I hear it. I'm ready to lay this word to rest.

Silk.
Peace