>If someone wants a message they
>can go to Western Union
>(I heard that somewhere).


a woman was quoting i think Hemingway. i think that's a way 4 ppl to ignore the fact that they r sending a message in everything they do to absolve themselves of the responsibility that that acknowledgement carries.


>I wake up almost everyday
>and serve the Black community.
> I lovingly give 8
>hours of my life a
>day to serve my people.
> When I go home
>I am serving me.

how r u different from your ppl. i mena in serving yourself don't u serve your ppl as well? i guess i don't understand how u split it up like that. "what i'm doing over here is for them and this is for me, one does not relate to another." that's what it sounds like to me. is that what u mean?

>Finally, my best friend traveled to
>Boston from New York City
>to meet this white guy
>I fell in love with.

"If the essence of 'love'... is giving
selflessly or sacrificing for others,
how can it then be equated with
something that you can 'fall into or
out of'?"

> I had
>managed to find someone who
>respected me, listened to every
>word I said and seemed
>committed to maintain a close
>but professional relationship.

how did u "find" this person? what tactics (4 want of a better word, that sounds desperate i know) were u using to locate a person b4 that didn't work that u changed and now did? or were u not "looking?" was it like accident, like falling into a hole or something, did it occur quite by happenstance? and when u discuss issues of race, how does that go? how does he affirm your africanness?

i was talking to someone who told me of a family member who recently divorced his white wife. for all intents and purposes she was a "good woman," looked after the children, faithful etc. but he said in terms of his africanness, especially as he beagn to read more, he found that she just saw it as something to tolerate. plus there was the problem of white privelege, that exclusive club she was born into, that he would never be "a part" of.

i found these culural differences affected the way i and the person i referred to looked at everyday situations. it was sort of a little thing bugging me, constantly in the back of my head.

anyway enough talk of bugs. thanks for indulging me.

I
>haven't crossed that line with
>him but I've come close.
> I may never enter
>in a intimate relationship with
>this white guy but he's
>taught me to seek out
>the love I know exists
>for me.
>
>* * * * * *
>* * * * *
>* * * * *
>* * * * *
>
>"To be as good as someone
>else is no high ideal...I
>am myself." - Paul Robeson
>
>
>"It's quite an experience to live
>in fear isn't it?
>That's what it is to
>be a slave." - Roy
>in "Blade Runner"
>
>"Everyone seems to have a clear
>idea of how other people
>should lead their lives, but
>none about his or her
>own."
>--Paulo Coelho, "The Alchemist"
>
>"There is a difference between knowing
>the path and walking the
>path"
>--Morpheus in "The Matrix" (and a
>Buddhist philosophy)
>
>"It's our choices, Harry, that show
>what we truly are, far
>more than our abilities"- Dumbledore
>to Harry Potter "Chamber of
>Secrets"


Shemhotep
************
"If u want a butterfly u got to B a
butterfly" - India.Arie, Butterfly

"the wages of sin is death"
Romans ch.6 v.23