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9450, That almost happened to me once
Posted by kemetian, Sun Feb-03-02 07:03 PM
w/ a first generation Irish person. But i could not allow it to continue to get a point where those feelings became strong b/c i have made a commitment to my people. i feel like everything i do is an example that i am setting. i feel like everything i do sends a message. so it is not enough for me to say i love my people but when it comes to the person i share my sacred space w/ i send the message that no member of my people was good enough. that to me is unacceptable and hypocritical. i believe that u won't find love where u don't go looking for it and just as a anything less than an 'A' is unacceptable for me in this time in school, anybody other than an African is unacceptable for me.

also my mate should share the vision i have for Us as a people and i just can't c that an other would be able to share that or y they should.

but that's me.


>I've always been disinterested as far
>as my personal life is
>concerned. Personally, I found
>it hard to believe that
>someone of another race would
>ever understand what it's like
>to be judged by skin
>color.
>
>For example, I once had a
>close friendship with a white
>guy in college. We
>were in high school together,
>in Kentucky and he was
>a jr and I was
>a sr. I went
>away to college in New
>York City and he came
>a year later. We
>grew closer. His mother
>visited and she did something
>that offended me. We
>went out and I showed
>her all the sites in
>NYC. Afterwards she tried
>to give me money (like
>a tip), like I was
>not her son's friend but
>some servant who was being
>paid to take her out.
> He apologized but did
>not really understand how I
>felt. We slowly grew
>apart and went our separate
>ways.
>
>For years after the college incident
>I had several friends who
>were non-Black but the relationships
>never got intimate. This
>changed recently. I met
>someone who was my social/intellectual/artistic
>equal and he has many
>of the non-physical qualities I'm
>looking for. Plus, there
>is a almost electric vibe
>between us. The whole
>situation is messing with me
>and forcing me to deal
>with my beliefs. He'll
>never know what it's like
>to be Black but he
>knows me and over the
>years I've learned to release
>fear and not take anything
>personally, esp. from racist or
>ignorant people.
>
>The Nettrice of old would not
>have tolerated the current relationship
>but this is a new
>day and a new Nettrice.
> I don't care if
>people know what I've been
>through. They just need
>to affirm and love me.
>
>
>* * * * * *
>* * * * *
>* * * * *
>* * * * *
>
>"To be as good as someone
>else is no high ideal...I
>am myself." - Paul Robeson
>
>
>"It's quite an experience to live
>in fear isn't it?
>That's what it is to
>be a slave." - Roy
>in "Blade Runner"
>
>"Everyone seems to have a clear
>idea of how other people
>should lead their lives, but
>none about his or her
>own."
>--Paulo Coelho, "The Alchemist"
>
>"There is a difference between knowing
>the path and walking the
>path"
>--Morpheus in "The Matrix" (and a
>Buddhist philosophy)
>
>"It's our choices, Harry, that show
>what we truly are, far
>more than our abilities"- Dumbledore
>to Harry Potter "Chamber of
>Secrets"


Shemhotep
************
"If u want a butterfly u got to B a
butterfly" - India.Arie, Butterfly

"the wages of sin is death"
Romans ch.6 v.23

"If the essence of 'love'... is giving
selflessly or sacrificing for others,
how can it then be equated with
something that you can 'fall into or
out of'?" - Ra Un Nefer Amen,
Afrocentric Guide to a Spiritual Union