even if no one "close to you" is available to talk to, please try to find a counselor at a local clinic or at student health services at the school you are at.

i really hope you can begin to find a measure of peace or at least a beginning to working through some of the things that have happened.

best wishes,

--rS

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rS

--Any belief worth having must survive doubt--

"Only the educated are free." -- Epictetus

"The punishment we suffer if we refuse to take an interest in matters of government is to live under the government of worse men." -- Plato