yeah man, i try to make an effort not to do it but its damn near impossible. especially right now because i am in kind of an uncertain state about even the immediate future, so rather than having focus its this sort of infinite, consuming process of what-ifs and shit. otherwise i feel like i am in pretty good shape mentally, i mean i dont know anyone who doesnt feel comfortable confiding in me, i got good relationships with people, no apparent disorders nor disabilities that i have studied etc. i often wonder about this but even if i got diagnosed with some anxiety bullshit, i doubt i would swallow any pills over it.