see, i think i would want to eat meat for the community, and it depends on the context of the begging as to the communality of the thing (i made up that word. does it work?)

charity just freaks me out. i read a quote once that was something like "what is wonting in this world is justice, not charity," and i deeply believe this

i am very stuck on fending for myself. but, if i was dependent on begging for food, i would eat what i got. because ya gotta eat to live. but if you're always dependent on begging you lose all your power of choice. how could a person choose to be a begger and a vegetarian??? (i know very little about buddhism)