When you get into dodging emotions and culture you subconsciously start to recognize the fact your just EXISTING and NOT LIVING.

you struggle and scramble for anything that has "life" in it.

Everyone loves wack music? I'll Give it a try, and love it too.
They're racist? F--k This whole creed of people over here then..
We're Christian Now? "Buddist are going to hell"

Its all just reaching for life, and it gets obscured when all the question you have go 100% unanswered. Unanswered questions, lead to confussion and denile. Not being able to relate to your "own" (on top of the confussion and denile of unanswered questions) you wind up LOST. Living through some American Beauty scenerio-- let's continue waking up.