9368, basement flowers Posted by guest, Tue Dec-12-00 01:46 PM
my christmas still smells like old spice and visitation rights like my daddy who wears a pinky ring that hurts him if I hold his hand too tight so i don't i just walk behind him in the airport trying to catch up but we don't speak cause airports are noisy and so is his red sport car thats his favorite color so i wear red ribbons in my hair even though my color is purple but he doesn't see it though cause he's too busy driving to grandma's house where he said i would drop my bags off and if I hurried back to the car this time he would take me to chucky cheese or somewhere place like that doesn't matter to me i remember running fast down hall ways bumping my knees on concrete trying to make it back up the hill where he parks but he's always gone and i hate this house that sits on a hill i hate the way it doesn't smell old spice i walk back down to the door trying to sniff my flower dress to see if I smell like him and smile cause i do i did, i mean until my scenery changed i changed too he says my cousin that is tells me i changed cause the last time he saw me i was this high and that wide and now i am changed he said smiling at my flower dress he reminds me of my daddy 'cept he smiles at me so i smile back to grandma's house where she is signing silent night in the kitchen off key not listening as my cousin tells me lets play downstairs in the family room thats what fulton county basements are converted to so i follow and he leads me to believe that a monsta stays behind the washer and dryer and i run and we laugh and play freeze tag until we get tired of playing so he says lets pretend and we do the basement becomes our pretend house the pillows are our pretend children he pretends to be the daddy and i pretend to be asleep while grandma keeps singing alllllllll issssss caalllmmmm alllllll isssssss riiiiiiggggghhhttttt she doesn't know the words to the song and i forget to scream rooooouuunnnddd yourrrr virginnnnnn mmmmooottthhheeerrr and chhhhiiillldddd i think she singing about me so i lay silently and she skips a versus just for me sllllllleeeeeeppppp iinnnnn heeeeaavenly pppeeeeaaaceeee sllleeep innnn heaven-ly peaceeeee she is finished singing now so she can come and save me open the door walk down the creeking stairs yell thats its time for dinner cause she's finished singing but he's still pretending smelling like sweat and now & laters sweet youth his sweet youth is choking me and grandma ain't singing so why the fuck didn't she save me how can she sing holy songs 'bout baby jesus and mary and not come and save me from choking on sweet youth mixed with mildew that keeps clinging to my memories cause this ain't the first time grandma forget to save me and my momma forgot to save me telling me to save myself for marriage but never told me bout playing house just always said "jesus wants you to save your flowers" but my jesus forgot to save me too and i don't care about the flowers on my dress getting dirty he just better not take my smell away he better not take my old spice smell away he better not take it but he did he got up put my smell in his pocket ran up the creeky stairs and gave my grandma a kiss on her fat cheeks while I was downstairs in her family room trying to smell my daddy again but my flowers have lost their scent.
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