is now tearing my life apart. i sat at my desk and cried because i so desperatly want to be loved by you. i want to be the one you dream of. i keep wanting to catch the first flight out to where you are but you keep saying wait wait wait...i've been waiting long enough...i can't sleep at night now. you invade my very dreams. my hands shake all the time now. it's like i'm addicted to the idea of you. i wonder if that's healthy. I just love you so much. how many times have i said it? how many poems have i written about you and my fustration? If u let me i know i can make you happy. i can give u everything your heart desires. Trust me please. i'm begging you. Trust for once in love. Please..i need this. i need you. Please.