This is still a work in process.
This piece is a life project/poem for him
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the cologne you were wearing had my head spinning and
drifting off to fantasies of you and me in fixed positions
chanting tantric inscriptions
while our bodies vibrate to the humming
of our carnal dispositions

you make me want you to be more than just my homie
and it blows me that all this time has transpired
and the effects you have on me have yet
to wear off like the cologne you were wearing
that does something to my psyche
makes the inner freak in me want to be on the scene
with you more ... and more
making not so subtle implications that even a blind man can't ignore

simply put...i want you

invading the standard 3 ft of personal space that not even my closest friends can violate
and i want to inhale you, hold you in and absorb the chemicals in your skin that already make me high as you walk by
i want to stay drunk off of you

tilt my head to the side bent off you
tangled up in emotional tornados that tapdance feverish yearnings on my spirtual plane
i want to feel you run through me like the blood in my veins
i am trying to articulate but can't find the things to say
and it's because the cologne you were wearing has got me in a daze

i am phasing out other potential candidates in my brain
you are leading in the race for everything in me that's sane and i can't help but add anvils to the ankles of those
that try to close in on your position. you've got me wishin' that no one darkens my doorstep on simple premonition
that this woman is already occupied with thoughts of and thirsts for a man she wants by her side

in other words...i ache for you

crave you like addicts fiend for their drug of choice
want wanton wantings running through my cerebral cortex
i'm vexed that i don't think of you longer or that thoughts of you and i don't come stronger
i need you like alkies need 151 proof being given to them by way of intraveneous feedings
i'm feeding off this love i have for you

needing to touch you, feel you, taste the salt from your skin

imagine

you laying on a bed of whatever feels comfortable at the time
and me needing to knead soft musk oils into the rhythm of your breathing
massage away the aches and the pains of a hard labored day
i want you to feel good, i need you to feel better than any one man should
because i love you
i love you

and though this may seem like a simple poem
this is the song that resides as home to a heart that is completely devoted to
the possibility of you and i intertwined as something greater then the sum of its parts
this heart...it beats for you
i breathe for you
i live for you

and though i could probably live without you, i'm not quite sure i want to
because the cologne you were wearing is more than just sustenance to me
it is the life force that drives me to believe that there is something greater than
my imaginings

and i imagine you
and me
and we
sharing all sorts of freaky scenes
from the unfathomable to the unfavorable
from the tempting to the terrible
the taboo will have nothing on the things we are going to do
because the cologne you were wearing
has me wanting do the freakiest kinds of things
like falling in love with you and staying that way...forever


to be continued...