its weird. Ever since Nikki left us, I have not been able to write. ANYTHING. 2 years yo.... this is the longest Ive ever had writers block. Its like my inspiration died with her. But even though ya'll dont see me much, trust Im still in here all the time. Readin and feelin' yall work. I just dont post much any more.

On a side note, I have a ton of writing from Nikki that she entrusted to me before she left us. Most of it never posted nor shared. In fact she instructed me never to show it to anyone. Just to hold on to it. I dont know what to do with it. Not sure what she intended for me to do with it. Someone suggested making a book, but a lot of it is so personal I wouldnt feel right doing it with out her approval. Another suggested sending it to her fam, but a lot of what I read would cause them more pain than anything else. Besides last time I hit them up they were none to happy to talk to me. I dunno....just confused I guess.

Sorry Im rambling I know.