1327, A Mixed Message Posted by paperdollpoet, Thu Dec-02-04 05:44 AM
by Tara Betts http://voices.e-poets.net/BettsT/home.html
What makes me so damned tragic? not a fragmented exotic mystery jezebel born from the blood of rape nor child of the so called integration experiment
I heard folks tell my momma How can parents put children through that It makes life so much harder,
I have seen my mind build bridges within blood my biology connects with ovaries & melanin with no capital to spare
I explode from Nella Larsen novels yet somehow, I am invisible woman descendant of Invisible Man niece of an Ex-Colored Man I balance proud weight & independent discipline on scales of identity swinging precarious images of Pinky & Pecola Decades before my birth
when certificates denied evident possibility plain as brown freckles across my face when some enjoyed the milk but avoided sunlight honey so no secrets would break into shards of life on racial concrete where I stand whole/deconstructing past nicknames like zebra, mutt or half-n-half while remembering my father held me through 11-year-old tears calling me by name calling me beautiful
Now, some say must be Black could be white maybe she's pinay Add Mexican to the list Puerto Rican tan white girl Are you from the South? Or the best one yet Are you Egyptian? At least when I wandered a continent where textbooks concealed land anchoring the Sphinx
I rekindle links as I touch brown hands with palms the same shade as mine I find myself within amalgamation improvisation within Black contradicting the bubbling brew of unidentifiable, indecipherable ethnic glamor girls What was she anyway?
No Concubine mistress nor color caste breeding rippin paper bag tests into confetti Ready to dissolve with steam rising from a glass of other
I defy categories fill in all the gaps where miscegenation laws blotted my birth
My voice smatters blood in the face of Aryan Nations I am what they feared Never passed in the world but passed salves over broken flesh reclaiming nationhood I lost generations ago retracing veins from history's corpse resounding with speech extending beyond now
- Tara Betts, copyright November 1999
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