11666, Even Posted by Zin, Fri Jul-09-04 02:05 PM
She said she wanted to be friends … And I took that to mean the that I was not the man that she was interested in .. And in that very instant … She left,… the day dreams that I spent dreaming in my evenings that I eventually wish to begin … To die with out meaning … And declined without EVEN seeing … My case pleaded … before this lovers court and was dismissed… Without EVEN cross examining the witness … Shit !!!… resentment …now had me wishing I didn’t feel like this … Instantly she went from… best friend To Future gurl friend To Just friend To BITCH!!! … And I don’t ever degrade women … but that was all the reimbursement I could get … For my time spent … And my good night kisses missed And my EVENings getting to know another queen to be And my feelings wasted chasing … me jaded?…or hating? Not EVEN!!! It EVEN felt good for a minute … That word … that had rolled off my tongue so easily …and irresponsibly that made me feel like a man … spew because I felt like I had been dealt with …as less of a man actually showed how boyish I was … and EVEN to this day …I felt like I got EVEN I guess some things you just don’t grow out of …
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